Experiment in Private Self-Consciousness
Ned W. Schultz, Ph.D. Copyright ©2002	Intro • One • Two • Three Four • Five • Six Homepage • Email
One - Eleven Variations
11	Immortality wish, I think...a wish that what remains in spirit will be complex, rich and haunting but not intimidating.
13a	Protection of some inner blend of emotions, thoughts, urges...something that isn't quite ready to be released...needs more blending.
14	A wish to be softer, gentler, more subtle, blended well with the world.
15	Reflects some anxiety over separateness from the excitement or celebration of life; a wish to enter the colors and bright show of life. Also a belief that I have much to "burn" as part of life's show.
15a	Restless energy that thinks too much of itself and threatens to overwhelm what it touches.
15b	Fear of pain, generalized anxiety, need for camouflage, withdrawal, retreat, perhaps also ability to dodge pain?
17	Embryonic potential, also warmth, capacity to love, a wish to offer warmth.
17a	Love of quickness...sudden presence in dramatic form.
18	A glimpse at a mix of sadness or depressive thoughts and feelings...blue elements valued, black edges are distressing.
18a	Marked or sculpted by external forces, but tenacious, lasting, strong.
19	A wish to glow or bleed or radiate into the world, to gently tint places visited.
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